Growing up there was always a fraction of my heart absent that I had always wanted to have fulfilled. Not having a father throughout my childhood has put a mild affect on me expressively. In my eyes, having no father for eighteen years meant that it would be too late to ever have one in my life. That emotion came to an end on the day of my high graduation when my biological father showed up on my front porch. I was absolutely stunned and soundless of words. I didn’t recognize him in any way but the reaction that dispersed through my body when I opened that door led me to know that he was my father.
Why was this stranger finally deciding to see his daughter? I kept asking myself that question repeatedly in my mind until we finally got the chance to sit down and converse. He informed me that I had three half siblings which consisted of one brother and two sisters. At that moment I felt left out like as if I didn’t do my role as a big sister all their lives. The hole in my heart seemed to get deeper as he spoke until he finally confessed the real truth to why he had abandoned me for all these years. He began explaining how he had been in prison for the last fifteen years for transporting illegal drugs over the U.
S border. There was no method of contacting me and if there was he didn’t want me growing up knowing that my father was incarcerated. At that moment everything seemed to make sense and I actually wanted to give this gentleman a hug and perhaps even a chance to be in my life. Once he departed all I could feel was excitement within my heart. A few months down the road I decided to fly down to New Mexico where my father had lived. This was going to be the opportunity for me to meet the other side of my family that I never had the chance to get to know.
I was utterly nervous but I knew that this was going to seal that gap in my heart. As soon as I arrived in New Mexico, everyone there made me feel welcomed with tons of comfort. It was like I had known these people my entire life. When I had returned home I felt as if my entire personal self had altered. It puts warmth in your heart knowing that you have more family that loves you just as much as everyone else does. My father and I began talking weekly keeping each other updated with our daily lives.
It took a while for us to understand each others personality and outlook on life. But eventually we grew into a normal father-daughter relationship that was full of faith and reliance. Building a relationship with my father had many difficulties but I’m not regretful for any of it because I can now proudly say that I do have a father in my life. When my father entered my life everything changed for the better it taught me a true life situation. He left a footprint in my life that I would never change for anything in the world because it has left me with a solid heart!